Feel blessed that you're spirit was not released to the Nether, <name>. Feel even more blessed that I decided you were worth the effort to write this scroll for.
The people you once knew, perhaps even cared for, are no longer! You must learn to "live" with that for the rest of your now unnatural life. I suggest you learn to deal with that first.
If you think you're ready for the trials ahead, then seek me out in the church in Deathknell.